am i there yet?

*as you've noticed, the previous entry was entitled journey to memory lane (emphasis on to) which meant i have yet to arrive at the said destination*

lately, i've been suffering from sleep deprivation to the extent that whenever i gaze at my reflection in front of the mirror, my very eyes seem to grow bigger and bigger as those of the gigantic squid's.

hyperbole much? waaaaa ANYWAY..

yesternight, after a minute or two of counting sheep and battling insomnia, i ceased the ridiculousness and grabbed the nearest object in sight, which was my nokia6600 cellular phone.

after reviewing photos and re-reading text messages, i came across to one of the, uhm, well-hidden folders (haha!) in the messaging corner and wistfully longed of two most significant people during my last year in high school ---> laila, my best friend, and he-who-must-not-be-named.

this was one of the literary pieces we discussed in senior english class. our professor, miss abay, informed us then that this poem's entitled the dilemma, and the poet's anonymous. when i surfed the web, however, results notified me that it was the risk, by william arthur ward. hm, neither will do, actually. i'd give laila the credits anyway :)

so sittie laila abpi guinomla text-messaged me this poem. i could still remember when and why she sent this :)

The Dilemma

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental

To reach out to another is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk rejection

To place dreams before the crowd is to risk ridicule
To love is to risk not being loved in return

To go forward in the face of overwhelming odds is to risk failure
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing

The person who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing
He may avoid suffering or sorrow, but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or love


Chained by his certitudes, he is a slave
He has forfeited his freedom

Only a person who takes risks is free.....



i have come to realize i never would have grinned from ear-to-ear,
or have might as well wept myself to slumber,
if it weren't for courage to take risks,
now would i?


P.S. since i informed only three people about my blog site, pamelancholia.blogspot.com, i would like to seize this opportunity to express my gratitude to the three of you. HAHAHA

HELLO, LAILA, DINNA, GEVA :)

Wandering Aimlessly Along Memory Lane,
PAMELAncholia