hm

i have come to the conclusion that IGNORANCE IS BLISS.

seriously.

tabangi,

PAMELAncholia

IGO

my good friend dinna has been constantly reminding me to listen to the song she strongly believes i could totally relate to..

where have you been?
i've been waiting so long to hear from you
and all the things that we said we would do
remains to be plans of the past.

we've been, we've been too quiet for too long.
where is, where is the hope we once had?
it's too late to be saved by your charm,
we'll never get this right.

your words are cold, and the season is, too,
the comfort in your voice is gone.
don't keep in touch, i'm better off all alone
you've lost everything that i've loved.

so is it worth this time?
am i done in your mind?
will i regret once you're gone?
why did i ever think that we would, we would be good?

we've been, we've been too quiet for too long.
where is, where is the hope we once had?
it's too late to be saved by your charm,
we'll never get this right.

well alright, i'm sorry i even tried.
i was a fool to have hope in you, in you.

AND I MUST ADMIT, I'VE NEVER AGREED WITH SOMEONE THIS MUCH.

igo,
PAMELAncholia

some song

Gone away are the golden days
Just a page in my diary
So here I am a Utopian citizen
Still convinced
There's no such thing as idealism
Memories they're following me like a shadow now
And I'm dreaming
And I've already suffered the fever of disbelief

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I was true as the sky is blue
I couldn't soon say the same for you
So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized by the picture that's in my mind
Tell me when I'll finally see your shallow heart
For what it is
'Cause I don't want to keep on believing in illusions

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

Sometimes I can't explain
And I'm so sorry that I can't
I'll try to concentrate
On your true identity

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I've seen your act
And I know all the facts
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
It ain't hard to see
Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were
And I wish you were here

I wish you were here...
I wish you were here...
I wish you were here...

twenty-five tanongs :)

1. popularly known as:
- pam

2. other race aside from being a
filipino?
- chinese

3. last message you received?
- " pamie. =:) " third part of dinna's message :)

4. last insult you heard?
- hala nakalimutan ko na

5. mabait ba yung crush mo?
- oo :)

6. sa school mo din ba pumapasok bf/gf
mo?
- wa koy uyab.

7. first impression/s sayo?
- "masayahing tao", and as the cliché goes, first impressions never last x_x

8. matropa ka bang tao?
- hm.. ata. pero ayos lang din sa akin kung mag isa lang ako :)

9. color/s of most of your things?
- pink :)

10. close ba kayo ng parents mo?
- yes

11. say something about love.
- "how on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?" --> albert einstein HAHA

12. sino talagang gusto mong makausap
ngayon?
- haha! siya.

13. Listening to (pop, punk, rock, rnb,
acoustic...)
- my sister humming :)

14. kailan last gig na napuntahan mo?
- ohmygedness, nakalimutan ko na x_x

15. recent ridiculous thing that
happened to you.
- nakatulog ako sa tren! haha kaya di ako nakababa sa estasyon kung saan dapat ako bababa

16. last time you cried?
- kanina..

17. describe your day in one word.
- tedious

18. latest na kinainisan mo?
- nakalimutan ko naaa :)

19. latest na ikinatuwa mo?
- nalipay ko kay nagabenta na usab ang mga tindahan ug swimsuits kay ni-undang kadyot tungod kay winter

20. latest you bought?
- venti-sized java chip frap from starbs :)

21. last coffee shop you visited & with
whom?
- starbs, ako lang isa x_x

22. are you a chain smoker?
- no

23. are you an alcoholic?
- i drink rarely

24. are you mad at someone right now?
- hm

25. name one person you miss
- he-who-must-not-be-named HAHA XD

mission : possible?

way back in high school, i used to mount my everyday to-do-list on a post-it. but since i left packs of those in davao, i'd just post it as a blog entry :)

TO-DO LIST

♥ mathematics materials ♥

(shop for the following at either staples center or office depot)

• Texas Instruments TI - 83 graphing calculator
• 1/2 inch - 3 ring binder
• 8.5 x 11 inch paper

♥ swimming stuff ♥

• sunblock with SPF infinity (haha)
• bathing suit :)
• goggles

plus...

• take an afternoon nap for at least three hours
  
• watch one tree hill season 5 episode 6 online :)

and the last but not the least...

EAT, DRINK AND BE MERRY :)

KUNG HEI FAT CHOY

25% Chinese,
PAMELAncholia :)

ABC's

[A] - available?
* no

[B] - birthday?
* january 11

[C] - crushing?
* yes

[D] - last drink you had?
* water

[E] - easiest person to talk to?
* bestfriends and siblings

[F] - favorite colors?
* pink

[G] - gummy bears or gummy worms?
* either will do :)

[H] - hometown?
* davaaaaao

[I] - ill?
* psychosis! haha

[J] - job?
* mcdo :)

[K] - killed anyone?
* never had and never will :D

[L] - longest car ride?
* las vegas to los angeles ( approximately five hours x_x )

[M] - favorite milkshake flavor?
* do strawberry-flavored shakes count? :)

[N] - number of sibilings?
* two

[O] - one wish?
* uwi..

[P] - person who called you last?
* tita :) it's her 61st birthday, by the way :)

[Q] - in love?
* yes

[R] - reason to smile?
* kalimutan ko na :(

[S] - song you last heard?
* "when you wish upon a star" - advertisement from disney channel! haha

[T] - time you woke up this morning?
* 7:55 am

[U] - understand people?
* i'd like to believe so :)

[V]- vegetarian?
* challenged myself to be one for a month, but quit after a week XD

[W]- worst habit?
* procrastination

[X] - x men lover?
* haha yehehes! PYRO! :)

[Y]- your number of friends on
myspace?
* 305

[Z]- zodiac sign?
* capricorn

miming :)

♥ happy happy 17th birthday, marian joannah cotecson ♥

♥ P A M I N G ♥

with three of my favorite people :)


HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MIMING! :)

welcome to the club!
heart-to-heart talks
cologne or lotion
cedric diggory or viktor krum
:)

I LOVE AND MISS YOU

am i there yet?

*as you've noticed, the previous entry was entitled journey to memory lane (emphasis on to) which meant i have yet to arrive at the said destination*

lately, i've been suffering from sleep deprivation to the extent that whenever i gaze at my reflection in front of the mirror, my very eyes seem to grow bigger and bigger as those of the gigantic squid's.

hyperbole much? waaaaa ANYWAY..

yesternight, after a minute or two of counting sheep and battling insomnia, i ceased the ridiculousness and grabbed the nearest object in sight, which was my nokia6600 cellular phone.

after reviewing photos and re-reading text messages, i came across to one of the, uhm, well-hidden folders (haha!) in the messaging corner and wistfully longed of two most significant people during my last year in high school ---> laila, my best friend, and he-who-must-not-be-named.

this was one of the literary pieces we discussed in senior english class. our professor, miss abay, informed us then that this poem's entitled the dilemma, and the poet's anonymous. when i surfed the web, however, results notified me that it was the risk, by william arthur ward. hm, neither will do, actually. i'd give laila the credits anyway :)

so sittie laila abpi guinomla text-messaged me this poem. i could still remember when and why she sent this :)

The Dilemma

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental

To reach out to another is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk rejection

To place dreams before the crowd is to risk ridicule
To love is to risk not being loved in return

To go forward in the face of overwhelming odds is to risk failure
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing

The person who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing
He may avoid suffering or sorrow, but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or love


Chained by his certitudes, he is a slave
He has forfeited his freedom

Only a person who takes risks is free.....



i have come to realize i never would have grinned from ear-to-ear,
or have might as well wept myself to slumber,
if it weren't for courage to take risks,
now would i?


P.S. since i informed only three people about my blog site, pamelancholia.blogspot.com, i would like to seize this opportunity to express my gratitude to the three of you. HAHAHA

HELLO, LAILA, DINNA, GEVA :)

Wandering Aimlessly Along Memory Lane,
PAMELAncholia